I started to build my Tribute to ELTON AND MARIA today.HARDEST THING I EVER DONE,still cant take it in.THE 2 MOST beautiful most articulable most honest most lovable gentle man and woman ,i have ever and will ever have the pleasure of knowing ,in this fucking shit world ,for it to dish out to these 2 what it has ,is an outrage,unjust ,sickening,and makes a mockery of the so call god ,the non-existent prick,and i stand by it ,if he ever did show his face id nail him back on the cross for this bollocks.These 2 did nothing all their life but help who they could ,and bring joy and happiness to every one they meet,while working bloody hard.they never deserved to go this way.to go out with so much sadness and pain ,after putting in so much love and care. Maria was always beautiful ,but just got more attractive with age ,to end up bed ridden ,in pain ,and finally robbed of her beauty but never her dignity,is a crying shame. Elton,so intelligent,so smart ,so full of life,his dream of making his film ,which any one that knew him were in no doubt,he would have made.his love of jokes and story's which he could rattle off for hours,as a son ,boy and man ,i could not of been prouder,to get gunned down ,by some lowlife pierce of shit is just incomprehensible. but above all this ,what these 2 had ,very few get close to it,the love ,the respect ,the fun the joy the fondness the tenderness,the passion the time they had for each other was a joy to behold,they really did enjoy each others company,Maria as a Mother had what all mothers long for unquestionable love and respect of a son ,Elton in return had the care love and affection of a woman and mother.now as in this world and for all eternity they are in the company they were most happy with ,they are together .which is just how they liked it. as for me ,their are no words come close ,anger ,rage,bitterness,total eclipse of the heart ,i died with them ,sense of loss,hopelessness ,utter shock, just fucking sick to my bones,and losing 2 stones don't help.so now i look for some kind of justice at least for my son.i carry on for this. these 2 were my life,they enriched it ,they bought meaning to it,if i had to write a book on my life ,these 2 would be on every page ,and even between the lines,my life had what most men would care for ,the love of a fine lady and the joy of a beautiful son.as i sit here i can honestly say to the both of them ,thank you ,i enjoyed the time,and if i could i would do it all again.missing you both more than you could every know. writing this as i seek justice ,with the assassins and the Colombian mafia ,and the local police just gangsters in uniforms taking money from these killers looking for me,but just like my son ,i walk away from nothing,this world cant hurt me no more ,and if i lose this fight ,then i find out just what my son and his precious mother already know.still trying son.love you both.